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*[rap music]*

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Why you reading, bitch?

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- Because I like to read, and this is a really good book.

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- You're a really good bitch, bitch!

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- Why you gotta bother me man?

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- Because!

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*[sad piano music]*
I'm not doing very well at school!

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I'm reading at a third grade level!

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I really don't wanna get left back, so when I see somebody reading for fun,

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it makes me feel that much more stupid! And then I get mad!

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*[music stops]*

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- Um, I didn't know that, thanks so much for opening up to me...

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- Shut up queer!

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- I don't understand, I mean, why you gotta go there?

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*[sad piano music]*

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I've been having sexual fantasies about some of the other guys at school.

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- What?
- Gimme that!

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I'm afraid of these feelings and what they might mean.

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It's like, because I hate myself so much, I gotta point that hate outward, towards you! <i>[laughs]</i>

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*[music stops]*

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- You understand this on such a deep level, that...

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*[sad piano music]*
- I don't understand s**t!

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Now I'm gonna punish you physically for acknowledging my emotional problems!

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- No no wait wait, I was gonna say, if you understand yourself so well,

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then maybe you should try working on changing it!

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- Of course I wanna change it! But it's the only defence mechanism I have

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against deeper, more terrifying problems buried inside of me!

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*[music stops]*

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You lucky my dad's here.

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*[sad piano music]*
- Get in the damn truck son!

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I need to take you home and beat on you 'cause I hate myself,

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and you look like your mother who left me.

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Then I'mma block out the guilt I feel over mistreating you with a river of vodka.

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- I'm gonna internalise that and unknowingly transfer it onto you tomorrow.

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Coming reluctantly.