1 00:00:02,833 --> 00:00:07,625 We really wanted to know God. So we decided to sell everything 2 00:00:07,708 --> 00:00:14,625 and go to a trip in South America. We had heard 3 00:00:14,708 --> 00:00:17,625 about ayahuasca, which is one of the psychedelic, 4 00:00:17,708 --> 00:00:21,208 most potent ones that is used in ancient tribes 5 00:00:21,291 --> 00:00:24,583 like in the Amazon. We wanted to experience that. 6 00:00:24,666 --> 00:00:28,958 I had seen documentaries who talked about people 7 00:00:29,041 --> 00:00:31,875 who had experiences and who had seen the spirit world 8 00:00:31,958 --> 00:00:34,375 and all these visions. So I thought to myself, 9 00:00:34,750 --> 00:00:38,083 well, I know there is something now. I'm not an atheist anymore, 10 00:00:38,166 --> 00:00:42,000 but if I can see the spirit world, then I will have no doubts anymore. 11 00:00:47,041 --> 00:00:49,750 My wife was already kind of 12 00:00:49,833 --> 00:00:53,708 in a spiritual search. She was more in what's called the New Age. 13 00:00:53,791 --> 00:00:59,375 So she would do meditation, yoga, a bit of beliefs like that, the universe. 14 00:00:59,625 --> 00:01:05,250 But at the time, I was still an atheist. But one day we had a long road trip 15 00:01:05,333 --> 00:01:09,958 from Montreal to New York City. And on that road trip, 16 00:01:10,041 --> 00:01:14,750 there was three people: myself, my wife and a friend who was a muslim. 17 00:01:14,958 --> 00:01:18,125 And we, all of us, we explained our worldviews. 18 00:01:18,333 --> 00:01:21,416 One was the universe. One was the Islam 19 00:01:21,416 --> 00:01:22,916 and myself was an atheist. 20 00:01:23,208 --> 00:01:25,916 So we came from the monkey. There is no God. 21 00:01:26,416 --> 00:01:29,833 And at the end of this conversation, I realized that what I was explaining 22 00:01:29,916 --> 00:01:34,291 was not my belief system, it was just what I had been taught at school. 23 00:01:34,666 --> 00:01:36,333 So I was just repeating. 24 00:01:36,583 --> 00:01:39,833 So I thought to myself, maybe I'm wrong on this question, 25 00:01:39,916 --> 00:01:42,458 very important that maybe there is a God. 26 00:01:44,916 --> 00:01:48,291 I started to look for who is this God? Who is the Creator? 27 00:01:51,125 --> 00:01:54,875 I knew at the time that I wouldn't find God in Islam 28 00:01:54,958 --> 00:01:58,583 or I thought in Catholicism either. So I went in this path 29 00:01:58,666 --> 00:02:03,791 of Buddhism and Hinduism. I started to pick up on conferences 30 00:02:03,875 --> 00:02:09,416 from different people. One was Alan Watts, who talks a lot about Hinduism, Taoism, 31 00:02:09,500 --> 00:02:13,625 meditation and also the psychedelics. And then I started to listen 32 00:02:13,708 --> 00:02:17,083 to Terence McKenna, who talks a lot about psychedelics 33 00:02:17,166 --> 00:02:18,458 in a spiritual way. 34 00:02:18,458 --> 00:02:22,083 And so I studied this path, which was part of it was experiences, 35 00:02:22,166 --> 00:02:26,958 and part of it was trying to understand the theology behind it. 36 00:02:28,416 --> 00:02:31,541 What is the meaning of life? 37 00:02:32,291 --> 00:02:34,416 If there is a God, then there is a purpose. 38 00:02:34,541 --> 00:02:38,208 There is a meaning, there is... So I was trying to find what it was. 39 00:02:39,208 --> 00:02:42,125 And at the time we had a company with my wife. 40 00:02:42,208 --> 00:02:44,375 It was very successful. We had a lot of money, 41 00:02:44,458 --> 00:02:47,625 a lot of time, a lot of friends. We were in love. 42 00:02:47,708 --> 00:02:51,375 So we had, in a way, everything that you would want to be happy. 43 00:02:51,708 --> 00:02:55,125 But something was missing. So there was an emptiness in our heart, 44 00:02:57,666 --> 00:03:03,000 We decided to sell everything and go to a trip in South America. 45 00:03:07,166 --> 00:03:09,000 We had heard about ayahuasca 46 00:03:09,750 --> 00:03:12,041 I had seen documentaries who talked about people 47 00:03:12,125 --> 00:03:14,958 who had experiences and who had seen the spirit world 48 00:03:15,041 --> 00:03:17,625 and all these visions. So I thought to myself, 49 00:03:17,833 --> 00:03:21,166 W ell, I know there is something now. 50 00:03:21,250 --> 00:03:25,083 if I can see the spirit world, then I will have no doubts anymore. 51 00:03:26,250 --> 00:03:29,583 So we went we went to the Amazon in Peru, and we did that experience. 52 00:03:31,500 --> 00:03:34,458 I had the idea to write a book 53 00:03:34,916 --> 00:03:37,791 during this experience, and I said to myself, 54 00:03:38,458 --> 00:03:41,583 once you will write the book, you will go back to the Amazon 55 00:03:41,583 --> 00:03:43,041 to have more visions. 56 00:03:43,708 --> 00:03:48,000 And so after that, we came to Spain and we decided to, um, 57 00:03:48,291 --> 00:03:51,250 to buy a house a little bit isolated from the civilization. 58 00:03:51,250 --> 00:03:54,208 To focus really on this spiritual search 59 00:03:54,208 --> 00:03:56,333 My wife was an artist. She started to paint 60 00:03:56,416 --> 00:03:59,041 and I was focusing on writing this book. 61 00:04:00,791 --> 00:04:04,916 This book was going to be about spirituality and personal development. 62 00:04:05,375 --> 00:04:07,416 But you cannot just talk about spirituality 63 00:04:07,500 --> 00:04:10,750 without knowing what you're talking about. So I was doing a lot of research. 64 00:04:10,875 --> 00:04:14,750 And at the time I had encountered a man called Manly P. Hall. 65 00:04:14,833 --> 00:04:18,666 He has done a lot of conferences and talks, a lot about esotericism, 66 00:04:18,750 --> 00:04:23,416 about different religions of the world. And through this guy, I came 67 00:04:23,500 --> 00:04:27,166 to another set of people, Annie Besant and Leadbeater, 68 00:04:27,250 --> 00:04:30,625 who were disciples of a woman called Helena Blavatsky. 69 00:04:30,791 --> 00:04:33,708 She had written a book called The Secret Doctrine, 70 00:04:33,791 --> 00:04:39,791 and this book is kind of the basis of all the theology that these people use, 71 00:04:39,875 --> 00:04:43,791 and that all the modern books talk about spirituality. 72 00:04:43,875 --> 00:04:46,041 They use the same ideas coming from this book. 73 00:04:46,125 --> 00:04:48,958 Talks about reincarnation, karma, the spirit world. 74 00:04:49,041 --> 00:04:52,250 Once I wrote my book, I wanted to promote it. 75 00:04:52,416 --> 00:04:56,166 I opened the YouTube channel and I started to talk about spirituality, 76 00:04:56,166 --> 00:04:58,166 On the side I was also still doing 77 00:04:58,250 --> 00:05:02,625 some psychedelic experiences like LSD or mushrooms, 78 00:05:04,958 --> 00:05:05,833 and I had some experiences that showed me that 79 00:05:05,833 --> 00:05:07,625 and I had some experiences that kind of showed me 80 00:05:07,708 --> 00:05:10,541 that something was not exactly what it seemed. 81 00:05:10,750 --> 00:05:14,958 At the time, I didn't have children, but my wife was pregnant 82 00:05:15,250 --> 00:05:17,250 and at the time I had picked up meditation. 83 00:05:17,333 --> 00:05:19,958 I would meditate every day, 30 minutes in the day, 84 00:05:20,208 --> 00:05:23,416 and I lived in a very peaceful area in the nature. 85 00:05:23,541 --> 00:05:28,083 But when my wife gave birth to our first child, our lives changed. 86 00:05:28,166 --> 00:05:31,875 Because when you have a child, well, you get tired 87 00:05:31,958 --> 00:05:35,583 because they don't sleep much at night. They are very demanding 88 00:05:35,666 --> 00:05:38,625 and so that comfortable life well has been shaken. 89 00:05:38,708 --> 00:05:42,291 And then I realized that I was not as peaceful 90 00:05:42,375 --> 00:05:45,083 as I thought I was. I was not the Zen master 91 00:05:45,166 --> 00:05:49,541 that I believed I was because I would lose my temper. 92 00:05:49,625 --> 00:05:51,583 Sometimes I would be aggressive. 93 00:05:51,583 --> 00:05:54,833 The second one is that once I had finished my book, 94 00:05:54,958 --> 00:05:57,875 I was ready to go back to the ayahuasca because this was 95 00:05:57,958 --> 00:06:00,458 the promise I made to myself. 96 00:06:00,458 --> 00:06:02,500 Through that ayahuasca retreat, 97 00:06:02,916 --> 00:06:05,041 I could see the mirror of all my intentions 98 00:06:05,166 --> 00:06:06,333 that I had been selfish. 99 00:06:06,458 --> 00:06:10,833 It was a way of escaping my responsibility as a father. 100 00:06:11,250 --> 00:06:15,375 So it was like a big shock that I thought I was a good guy 101 00:06:15,708 --> 00:06:21,000 and that I was teaching people online that I was a spiritual, uh, 102 00:06:21,541 --> 00:06:24,083 but in fact, I was really selfish. 103 00:06:26,666 --> 00:06:28,458 And the third one is the origin of evil. Because through all that teaching, 104 00:06:28,458 --> 00:06:32,500 And the third one is the origin of evil. Because through all that teaching, 105 00:06:32,583 --> 00:06:37,958 reading all this, I didn't feel that I had found the truth 106 00:06:38,041 --> 00:06:42,166 with a big T. I have answers about the meaning of life 107 00:06:42,250 --> 00:06:45,750 through reincarnation and karma, but it was superficial, 108 00:06:46,125 --> 00:06:50,000 the origin., I couldn't understand what is the origin of evil, 109 00:06:50,166 --> 00:06:52,708 I didn't feel like I had really found it. 110 00:06:56,041 --> 00:06:59,708 And by studying the books on this problem, 111 00:06:59,708 --> 00:07:02,791 the origin of evil, from the people 112 00:07:02,875 --> 00:07:06,416 that I was studying, I got answers that didn't make sense. 113 00:07:06,625 --> 00:07:10,833 They said that evil doesn't exist, that it's just relative. 114 00:07:10,916 --> 00:07:14,833 For example, cancer is a bad thing for the person who dies from cancer. 115 00:07:14,916 --> 00:07:18,125 But if you take the point of view of the cancer itself, 116 00:07:18,208 --> 00:07:22,041 it's good because he has he has food from the body that it kills. 117 00:07:22,125 --> 00:07:25,583 It doesn't make any sense, right? This is madness to me. 118 00:07:25,750 --> 00:07:29,208 But this is what they explain. When I digested these three things, 119 00:07:29,375 --> 00:07:33,583 I was not as zen as I thought. This path is not working. 120 00:07:34,125 --> 00:07:38,833 I was worse than I thought I was, and I was not even aware 121 00:07:38,916 --> 00:07:42,375 that I had all these selfish intentions in my heart. 122 00:07:42,666 --> 00:07:46,583 And I didn't find the truth. I realized this path is not working. 123 00:07:46,666 --> 00:07:50,375 So it had been almost more than seven years, almost eight years. 124 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:58,041 And so one day I cried out to God. I really, with the bottom 125 00:07:58,125 --> 00:08:02,458 of my heart crying. I said, God help me, I cannot do it 126 00:08:02,541 --> 00:08:07,083 myself, please help me. And very shortly after that, I had the first reply. 127 00:08:07,333 --> 00:08:12,333 I got in contact to Christian content. So first of all, I heard more about Jesus. 128 00:08:12,416 --> 00:08:15,333 I heard more about the Christianity, the message. 129 00:08:15,833 --> 00:08:20,291 Until one day I was doing some research on the fallen angels. 130 00:08:20,875 --> 00:08:23,791 I found a documentary. And in this documentary 131 00:08:23,875 --> 00:08:28,125 they talk about the fall of man, the deception of Satan, 132 00:08:28,208 --> 00:08:32,708 who wants to deceive people away from God, the fallen angels who are demons, 133 00:08:33,000 --> 00:08:37,791 who pretend to be spiritual guides and men in this world 134 00:08:37,875 --> 00:08:42,333 who are part of an organization called the Freemasonry, who actually 135 00:08:42,583 --> 00:08:49,250 worship Lucifer and are connected to so-called masters, ascended Masters, 136 00:08:49,333 --> 00:08:53,041 spirit guides who guide them to illumination 137 00:08:53,416 --> 00:08:58,500 to become as gods. And so this is exactly what the theology I was following 138 00:08:58,791 --> 00:09:02,583 in this new age. All this meditation, all the yoga that you do, 139 00:09:02,750 --> 00:09:07,291 is to attain illumination, to realize that you are actually God. 140 00:09:07,375 --> 00:09:09,875 In this documentary, they explained that it's actually 141 00:09:09,958 --> 00:09:13,958 the exact same deception that Satan used with Adam 142 00:09:14,041 --> 00:09:17,208 and Eve in the Garden of Eden. And so I realized: 143 00:09:17,291 --> 00:09:21,875 it looks like I had I have been deceived. But what really opened my eyes was that, 144 00:09:21,958 --> 00:09:24,750 first of all, they quoted a lot of things from books, 145 00:09:24,833 --> 00:09:29,000 from these people who I had translated some of the conferences 146 00:09:29,250 --> 00:09:31,625 had put on my YouTube channel, and the quotes 147 00:09:31,708 --> 00:09:34,958 were saying that Lucifer is their God 148 00:09:35,791 --> 00:09:38,958 and all these people were Freemasons from the 33rd degrees. 149 00:09:39,250 --> 00:09:42,416 And the second one was a quote 150 00:09:42,500 --> 00:09:45,916 from the Bible, Ephesians 6:12 'we do not fight 151 00:09:46,000 --> 00:09:48,458 against flesh and blood, but against spiritualities, 152 00:09:48,541 --> 00:09:53,375 against spirits in high places'. When I read that, I understood 153 00:09:53,458 --> 00:09:59,458 that we are part of a spiritual world, and the weapons of this war 154 00:09:59,583 --> 00:10:05,000 is not swords or bullets or guns. It's lies, ideas. 155 00:10:05,125 --> 00:10:07,666 I understood, it looks like I've been deceived. 156 00:10:08,083 --> 00:10:09,291 But more than that, when I saw Ephesians, I said, 157 00:10:09,291 --> 00:10:11,041 But more than that, when I saw Ephesians, I said, 158 00:10:11,125 --> 00:10:13,541 What is Ephesians? I don't know Ephesians. 159 00:10:14,041 --> 00:10:16,000 I've read a lot of books about spirituality, 160 00:10:16,083 --> 00:10:19,375 but I've never heard about Ephesians. Ephesians is obviously 161 00:10:19,458 --> 00:10:22,541 it's part of the New Testament. And I had not read the Bible 162 00:10:22,958 --> 00:10:26,625 because these people, these Freemasons, they say that the Bible 163 00:10:26,708 --> 00:10:30,333 has been corrupted, that we don't have the real Gospels. 164 00:10:30,625 --> 00:10:33,000 When I saw that documentary, the first thing I did 165 00:10:33,083 --> 00:10:37,208 was to do some research about the Bible. Has the Bible been changed? 166 00:10:37,375 --> 00:10:39,500 And I realized that no, it has not been changed. 167 00:10:39,583 --> 00:10:43,583 We have six, almost 6000 manuscripts of the New Testament in Greek. 168 00:10:43,958 --> 00:10:48,166 The Old Testament has been preserved. What we have, what when we read the Bible, 169 00:10:48,375 --> 00:10:50,375 is what has been written. 170 00:10:55,041 --> 00:11:00,125 There was a split moment when my flesh didn't want it, this truth, 171 00:11:00,541 --> 00:11:03,625 because I had put a lot of work in all these videos, 172 00:11:03,916 --> 00:11:08,208 and I had also prepared that image of me being a spiritual leader. 173 00:11:08,416 --> 00:11:14,500 So part of me didn't want this to be true. But once you taste the truth, 174 00:11:14,583 --> 00:11:17,333 if you are sincere, it doesn't matter the cost 175 00:11:17,416 --> 00:11:20,500 because you want the truth. So I decided to change. 176 00:11:20,583 --> 00:11:24,125 To block all my videos that was teaching this lie 177 00:11:24,541 --> 00:11:27,875 and started to tell people about this deception. 178 00:11:28,041 --> 00:11:32,125 And when I read the Bible, I started from Genesis to Revelation 179 00:11:32,208 --> 00:11:37,375 when I arrived at the New Testament, when I read Romans chapter two: 'you 180 00:11:37,458 --> 00:11:41,166 who think you are teaching others, do you teach yourself? 181 00:11:41,458 --> 00:11:44,708 You who say, do not steal, do you not steal?' 182 00:11:44,958 --> 00:11:47,875 So it was like the Bible was talking to me directly 183 00:11:48,416 --> 00:11:52,250 and I felt convicted. And so at the end of it understood 184 00:11:52,333 --> 00:11:55,583 that the truth that I was looking was in the Bible 185 00:11:55,666 --> 00:12:00,125 because the truth is in Jesus. Jesus is the truth, the way and the life 186 00:12:00,541 --> 00:12:05,208 and the origin of evil is from is coming from the deception of the devil. 187 00:12:05,666 --> 00:12:09,375 So I understood also, I couldn't change myself because it's impossible. 188 00:12:09,583 --> 00:12:11,750 Only God can change you when you surrender. 189 00:12:12,041 --> 00:12:16,208 And the last one is: I had all these selfish intentions. 190 00:12:16,291 --> 00:12:19,041 I had a broken heart because I was a sinner 191 00:12:19,208 --> 00:12:22,500 and I needed redemption. I needed to be forgiven. 192 00:12:23,250 --> 00:12:26,500 I went with a tent in a mountain 193 00:12:26,583 --> 00:12:29,000 and I confessed all my sins in front of God. 194 00:12:29,041 --> 00:12:33,041 I ask forgiveness for all my sins, and I asked him forgiveness 195 00:12:33,125 --> 00:12:38,083 for having been fooled and having been deceiving other people 196 00:12:38,166 --> 00:12:40,791 also through the YouTube channel. And I said I wanted 197 00:12:40,875 --> 00:12:42,375 to give my life to him. 198 00:12:42,458 --> 00:12:47,083 to sleep on the tent on the mountain. And that night I had a dream. 199 00:12:47,166 --> 00:12:50,583 but it was more than a dream. It was like a vivid experience 200 00:12:50,666 --> 00:12:54,875 that one man, very evil man, came with a long knife 201 00:12:54,958 --> 00:12:59,416 and he wanted to kill me. And behind him, standing with a peaceful presence 202 00:12:59,500 --> 00:13:02,166 was Jesus Christ, who just took his arm like this. 203 00:13:02,250 --> 00:13:05,708 I understood that it was God showing me that I am no more 204 00:13:05,791 --> 00:13:10,833 under the power of the evil, and that now God is protecting me. 205 00:13:11,083 --> 00:13:15,500 And after that we decided to baptize each other in water. 206 00:13:15,625 --> 00:13:18,833 My wife and I, at the time we were living in an isolated area. 207 00:13:18,916 --> 00:13:21,708 We didn't have any Christians around us. We just obeyed 208 00:13:21,791 --> 00:13:25,375 to what we read in the Bible. And so we baptized each other in water. 209 00:13:25,791 --> 00:13:27,833 But one day during that period, 210 00:13:28,041 --> 00:13:31,375 someone sent me a commentary to my YouTube channel 211 00:13:31,458 --> 00:13:35,125 and ask me my opinion about a movie. And the movie 212 00:13:35,208 --> 00:13:38,333 was from The Last Reformation. It was The Life. 213 00:13:44,250 --> 00:13:47,125 And when I watched the end of the movie at the end, 214 00:13:47,208 --> 00:13:51,166 when it was the last song I felt the Holy Spirit. 215 00:13:51,291 --> 00:13:53,625 At that time, I didn't know it was the Holy Spirit, 216 00:13:53,708 --> 00:13:56,250 but I felt an experience that overwhelmed me 217 00:13:56,583 --> 00:14:00,166 with a very strong conviction that you should be baptized 218 00:14:00,250 --> 00:14:02,791 in the Holy Spirit and you should sell your house and go. 219 00:14:02,958 --> 00:14:07,375 I was so shaken that I lay on the floor for like ten minutes with this. 220 00:14:07,791 --> 00:14:11,833 I went to the website of TLR and I found someone on the Map. 221 00:14:11,916 --> 00:14:16,833 Elizabeth who is a sister now in Barcelona and I told her what happened to me. 222 00:14:17,291 --> 00:14:22,000 Can you come to our house and pray for us? And she came with a couple of brothers 223 00:14:22,083 --> 00:14:26,333 to our house, the week later. They prayed, first of all for my wife, 224 00:14:26,666 --> 00:14:30,166 and she started to cry. She received the baptism 225 00:14:30,250 --> 00:14:34,125 of the Holy Spirit. But from the outside, what I saw was she was starting to cry. 226 00:14:34,208 --> 00:14:38,208 She was starting to be very emotional and started to speak in tongues. 227 00:14:38,458 --> 00:14:41,875 So I thought, okay, this is working because at the time I wasn't sure 228 00:14:41,958 --> 00:14:44,250 if it's going to it was going to happen or not. 229 00:14:45,250 --> 00:14:47,583 Even though I had checked on the Bible that yes, this 230 00:14:47,666 --> 00:14:52,041 is what we read in the Bible. And so then it was my my turn. 231 00:14:52,250 --> 00:14:54,750 We prayed for the baptism of the Holy Spirit 232 00:14:54,875 --> 00:14:57,708 right away, it it fell on me from, 233 00:14:58,208 --> 00:15:04,541 from below with a very strong love presence and a heat. 234 00:15:04,958 --> 00:15:09,166 I was sweating very profusely and with this 235 00:15:09,250 --> 00:15:13,833 very strong conviction that I want to do the will of God now, 236 00:15:13,916 --> 00:15:17,125 not just my will. After that, I decided to pray 237 00:15:17,208 --> 00:15:19,125 and fast for a week about the second thing, 238 00:15:19,208 --> 00:15:22,125 which was you should sell your house and go because I really 239 00:15:22,208 --> 00:15:23,666 didn't want to leave Spain. 240 00:15:23,750 --> 00:15:24,833 After six days 241 00:15:24,916 --> 00:15:29,458 I received a reply from my prayers. I felt God was telling me 242 00:15:29,541 --> 00:15:33,625 that your place is not here. Your house is not in this world. 243 00:15:34,125 --> 00:15:39,541 You have a place in the sky, but this is just a small period of time 244 00:15:39,625 --> 00:15:43,958 and with a peace also. So I said, okay, this is this is what we should do. 245 00:15:44,041 --> 00:15:47,083 So we put the house on sale and for about three months 246 00:15:47,416 --> 00:15:50,958 until we really left Canada, this sister Elisabet, 247 00:15:51,041 --> 00:15:53,458 with a couple of brothers, they came every week 248 00:15:53,541 --> 00:15:56,541 to a house to disciple us. So we started to learn 249 00:15:56,625 --> 00:16:00,500 about praying for people on the streets, trying to share the gospel. 250 00:16:00,583 --> 00:16:04,666 And after about three months we left and we arrived in Canada. 251 00:16:04,916 --> 00:16:08,000 It was a very difficult time, especially for my wife, 252 00:16:08,083 --> 00:16:10,791 but also for myself because it was very cold. 253 00:16:10,875 --> 00:16:14,541 We were used to living in Spain. A very comfortable life. 254 00:16:14,625 --> 00:16:17,750 Through that God was working in our heart and trying. 255 00:16:18,041 --> 00:16:23,541 It was revealing things that, you know, character that was important to change. 256 00:16:23,625 --> 00:16:26,708 And after nine months we decided to to come back to Spain. 257 00:16:27,041 --> 00:16:29,375 All the doors were blocked in Canada, so we understood 258 00:16:29,458 --> 00:16:34,333 that we were not meant to be there, but we were sent to Canada 259 00:16:34,791 --> 00:16:38,791 so that it could work in our heart. Before we left Canada, I went for a PTS, 260 00:16:38,875 --> 00:16:41,375 which is a Pioneer Training School for two weeks 261 00:16:41,750 --> 00:16:46,416 with Olivier and Julian and his teams. It was a wonderful time. 262 00:16:46,791 --> 00:16:51,333 I felt really connected with God, could hear His voice, His presence, 263 00:16:51,416 --> 00:16:54,333 and that was a really wonderful time. And so I thought, 264 00:16:54,708 --> 00:16:57,166 that would be a good thing to do for my wife also. 265 00:16:57,333 --> 00:16:59,833 And so when we came to Spain, we did the PTS, 266 00:16:59,916 --> 00:17:04,125 but this time it was for my wife and it was in the south of Spain 267 00:17:04,958 --> 00:17:07,458 with Robbert and with you guys. And obviously 268 00:17:07,791 --> 00:17:11,125 this was also a very powerful time, especially for my wife. 269 00:17:22,375 --> 00:17:28,041 We bought an apartment where we live now, and we went to a process of renovating it. 270 00:17:29,041 --> 00:17:31,666 It was kind of a being completely involved again. 271 00:17:31,750 --> 00:17:34,916 And I felt disconnected a little bit from God 272 00:17:35,000 --> 00:17:37,583 because I didn't pray as much as I used to. 273 00:17:37,791 --> 00:17:41,125 I didn't have a lot of fellowship, and I felt a little bit 274 00:17:41,208 --> 00:17:45,625 distanced from God. But I also couldn't do videos on YouTube 275 00:17:45,875 --> 00:17:50,166 as I used to before. And at first, I kind of felt bad about it 276 00:17:50,250 --> 00:17:53,291 because I had the idea that I have to perform, 277 00:17:53,375 --> 00:17:55,666 I have to do things for God, but I couldn't. 278 00:17:55,750 --> 00:17:58,458 So I felt like I was not doing the right thing. 279 00:17:59,041 --> 00:18:02,750 But God was working in my heart to so that I could understand 280 00:18:02,833 --> 00:18:06,083 that it's not just about doing, it's also about being, 281 00:18:06,208 --> 00:18:09,750 about connecting to God and being close to Him. 282 00:18:11,250 --> 00:18:16,250 And being aligned to His will. Because yes, He does want to save souls 283 00:18:16,500 --> 00:18:19,541 and He wants us to share about the gospel, to pray for people. 284 00:18:19,708 --> 00:18:23,000 But He also has a will. And there are seasons in our lives. 285 00:18:23,250 --> 00:18:26,250 And I understood that, that it's better to be aligned 286 00:18:26,333 --> 00:18:29,416 with the will of God than just doing things on our own flesh, 287 00:18:29,500 --> 00:18:34,125 on our own will. So I had to learn that, and I'm still learning it. 288 00:18:40,291 --> 00:18:43,875 So in conclusion, I would like to say that I have often regretted 289 00:18:43,958 --> 00:18:45,708 that it took me so long to find Jesus. 290 00:18:46,916 --> 00:18:49,333 But now I believe that God allowed me 291 00:18:49,500 --> 00:18:53,000 to spend all this time in reading a lot of spiritual books, 292 00:18:53,125 --> 00:18:55,791 doing ascetic practices, and spending time and money 293 00:18:55,875 --> 00:18:58,500 in spiritual retreats so that others don't have 294 00:18:58,583 --> 00:19:01,333 to do it when they realize it doesn't lead to God. 295 00:19:02,958 --> 00:19:06,125 The Christian path is not an easy one, but the peace and love 296 00:19:06,208 --> 00:19:09,541 that is found in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior 297 00:19:09,625 --> 00:19:12,500 are worth giving up everything, and it is the only path 298 00:19:12,583 --> 00:19:16,541 that will take you through the storms of this life to the everlasting peace 299 00:19:16,625 --> 00:19:20,250 in heaven. If you haven't been born again. I really want to encourage you 300 00:19:20,333 --> 00:19:24,541 to repent and believe in the gospel. Be baptized and follow Jesus. 301 00:19:24,625 --> 00:19:27,125 I pray that the Holy Spirit will touch you today, 302 00:19:27,208 --> 00:19:29,666 that God will heal you, that he will restore you, 303 00:19:29,750 --> 00:19:34,458 and that he will use you for his glory. I pray in Jesus name, Amen.