I was spiked

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Hello lovelies

welcome back to the channel

i didn't think i'd be here doing like

another little rambly

car vlog thing so soon

I was expecting to have other content

in between, but, ya know,

like I said in the last video

tryna let go of things being perfect

and this is just the way

things have worked out

I have went back and forth

a lot on whether I was going to

make this video at all

I'm still surfing two minds about it.

For a lot of reasons, but one of

them is just like

when you post anything to the internet

you're going to get a lot of unsolicited

advice and opinions and theories

which like isn't a bad thing

cause I know people are just

like wanting to be helpful

and that's nice, but

whenever it's like hundreds upon

hundreds of comments

it can be overwhelming

like for instance in the last video

I talk about how I'd been

in the hospital and stuff

I got so many comments

that like I- I could-

I just gave up on replying to them and

explaining, telling them about the

pain in my chest

Oh, ya, that's anxiety, that's a

panic attack

that's not! I am somewhat

of a panic attack pro at this point

I am no stranger to panic attacks

I have had some truly awful ones

I have had ones where it has definitely

felt like I was dying

this was not a panic attack

this was something completely

different. Don't know what.

But I know for 100%, completely certain

not a panic attack

but i have so many people in my comments

oh it's a panic attack

and its just like i said

those people are trying to be helpful

so there's no reason for me to be

like annoyed by it

but it's just like overwhelming

when people are like telling you

over and over again something

that isn't the case

Do you know what I mean

So, like, that's one thing

and then just, I don't know

people can be judgy and people can be

victim-blame-y I guess

So, basically-

I was looking for my phone

to check the day

I'm recording on my phone

I'm pretty sure it's friday

and ive waited until now to

do this cause like I said,

I wasn't sure if I was going to do this

at all and I wanted to like not be in

like so close to it in such an

emotional state but last weekend

on saturday my friend and

i were out at a gig

with some other friends and

two of us got spiked

which was really scary

and I've never had it happen before so

I also just want to get it out of the way

before I get into this as well

there's like nothing funny about it

this is like a really serious situation,

it's not funny

but I do tend to use humor as

a coping mechanism for things

so if I am making jokes and stuff

don't think it's because I don't take

this seriously becuase I do

It' s just, sometimes you

just have to laugh

and ya, I'd posted a thing about

it on Instagram

I think whenver I posted it

it was still quite early in the morning

after being- after waking up

having the whole thing happen

Is that how those words go?

Probably not, you know what I mean

and I was still at the point of like

I was pretty sure we were spiked

but not in like-

we were absolutely spiked the more

information I was filled in on

And ya people have wanted to know

more about what happened

so that's why I'm here

I went and got myself boba

I got myself boba, but I either

did not get myself a straw or I hve

lost the straw

be like a parma violet one

it looks suspiciously white

so I hope it tastes like parma violet

it's nice but I can kind of just taste

the blueberry. I don't tast

any violet

I don't even really now where to start

So, ya, it was saturday and me

and a few of my friends had gone

out to the gig

It wasn't in like a bar or club

or anything

It was like a- i don't know what

I've never been there before

It's actually a really cool little venue

But it's like I think like a private

kind of thing. But it was

like uh, a bring your own little thing

It's unfortunate that this happened there

because of all the places

that it could of happened

I feel like it was hardest

for it to happen ther

but it just, ya know

it's just an unlucky thing

before anyone says it

like, we thought we were being careful

with our drinks.

Me and my friend, you know,

we thought we were being careful

but at the end of the day

if someone really wants to get you

a lot of the time they will

people have ways of

being sneaky. We're not really

sure what happened, but uh

it's not like we were just leaving drinks

lying around or anything, ya know

sorry i think i am a little bit on

the defensive because im waiting

for all of like you should have been more

careful you should have done

this you should have done that

and it's like sometimes it happens

and also like I got a few messages

on Instagram and like no hate

to this person

but like, ya know they said

over and over again, you know

I'm not criticizing, like you know

they were saying it from a place of love

or whatever, but they said something

along the lines of like

how I should maybe like stop

the excessive partying and drinking

and is waking up in the hospital

really your idea of fun'

first of all,

I go out drinking twice a month

that's not what I would call excessive

and two, no waking up in the hospital

is not my idea of fun

which is why i don't tend to drug myself

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