PAPAJI - 28th January 1997 (full satsang)

Om

"Dear Papaji, Please give me a new name.

"Thomas is...

"...is often...

"...associated with doubt.

"And I have been... Now," What is that?

"I have seen..."

Yeah, "I have seen..."

"seen now I can confuse
and hurt myself...

Ohsho?

Osho.

"Ohsho told me...

"Osho told me that
Thomas means...

" 'Seeker of Truth.'

"Here on your...

-"on your...
-"in your presence..."

-"in your presence, this week"
-"the seeker"

And...

"The seeker no longer serves me."

"I wish to relax into my being and enjoy
that which never comes,

"comes and goes.

"Which, through your grace and the self...

"inquiry."

-"self-inquiry I have been, I have...
-"Seen."

"Seen to be my true nature.

"Papaji, Please release
me from this burden.

"And give me... Give me an...

-"Supportive?
-"Appropriate"

-"Sporting name to now walk...
-"with

"...with, Master.

"And now...

-"this, this...

"I bow to your wisdom-compassion.

Papaji, I ask you to help me to
relieve myself of the doubts ...

-I ask you... speak to her?
-Speak to him.

Papaji, I'm asking you,
this doubt that my name carried before,

to release me, leave me of that,
giving me a new name.

Too much is burden, the past
is finished.

And when I say "the seeker",, in your
presence, it's just an old old habit seeking,

when you've shown me already
the end, and it's just going on, so,

for this I'm asking you a new name.

I'll give you a name,
which has no identity at all.

-Today 20?
-Two eight. 28. One. 97.

[Name] having no worry at all about
anything.

"Dear Papaji,
I feel great confusion in my life.

-"Love...
-"You said,

"You said that we have to go alone.

"You said that you got to go alone,
to go alone for freedom.

"I am afraid of going alone.

-"So much of the...
-"Loneliness,

"Loneliness.

"Will you please...

"Will you please be there for me?

"Will you please be there for me?

"be there for me.

-"I will be there for...
-"Will I be there for me?

-"I have to be...
-"free.

Ernat, Ernat.

"Ernat."

You have to be alone,
to be happy and free.

All day you are busy with so many things.

Then you go to sleep.

There you are alone and enjoy for at least
eight to ten hours.

Why do you sleep if you are enjoying here?

It means freedom is in loneliness.

You can be here and still alone.

Then you can enjoy this world also and
everything of this world,

including yourself and
friends and relations.

But if you have this, this is mind:

"and I have to get other, tomorrow, day
after tomorrow," then you are suffering.

So try to be alone all the time,
even with your friends and relations.

And this trick you have to
learn from the teacher.

And all the rest relations are only
eating you up and spoiling you.

-I know that.
-Hmm?

I know that.

You know that then, that's
why you have come here.

If you were happy you
would not have come here.

Thank you.

-This has been really... remove this.
-This one?

"Dearest Papaji, This is my last satsang
before returning to England.

"I hope the fact that I feel my spiritual
roots are Western,

-"And...
-"Christian,"

"And roots are Western and Christian.

-"And not...
-"Eastern.

"...not Eastern, or Hindus

-"will not...
-"...detract.

-Huh?
-"Detract"

"...will not detract.

-"I am able to...
-"receive you.

-"Receive?
-"from you."

"...from you."

"May I sing you another
little song? Serge."

How you can sing a song and when you are
divided with so many things?

You have to be free and alone.

Then only you can sing
and others can enjoy.

What do you mean that you are Western
and...

-Christian.
-And Christian.

What is the meaning of Christian?

That you belong to somebody who died.

And you are still following him.

Why don't you live with the man who's ever
alive and living and tell you, you are,

"You don't belong to me
and you don't belong to any religion,

"and you don't belong to any God."

You must follow that man.
Then you will be happy.

What do you mean by, "I am Christian?"

Christ is dead, 2000 years now.

And you are following a man who is dead,
you see.

And you will also die like him.

So this religion is given by the people
who are doing some business,

some kind of business, you see.

Even during his life nobody followed him.

Five people were there only.

Only five people were there and they also
left him every time.

When he was suffering nobody
helped him, you see?

So it is better to be free,
and don't follow anyone

and follow something
which cannot be followed.

Close your eyes
and close your ears

and then see who's that
person who can help you.

Anyway, you are offered to sing a song.

Who will listen to the song and who will
enjoy when somebody is suffering and singing?

It's a good song to say,
"I am free.

"I don't belong to any
religion and anybody."

Then you sing a song.

Everybody will follow and
everybody will be happy.

So since you are offered to sing a song...

Okay, you can sing but what happened to
your right knee?

What is this?

It split out of my jeans.

"It split out of my jeans,"
he says.

Out of your jeans.

And it will go slowly,
it will go up, you see.

This hole will slowly go up, you see?

Okay.

-I will try to sing from that. space.
-Huh?

"I will try to sing from that space."

From this place?

I've been scrambled by your grace.

That's blown my logical mind away.

I've been scrambled by your grace.

It is all being blown away.

Forgot.

I'm so grateful for your presence, Papaji.

Bless you, Papaji.

That's all?

It's such a big song on the big...

I will try one more verse.

I can't.
Thank you, Papaji.

"This is the echo.

"This is the echo in the cave of my heart.

"The soundless sound, I am that.

"Creative, luminous, ever-hanging, unborn,
absorbing on presence."

Okay.

"I am that which is not.

"The sightless sight
in the cave of the heart here....

"...there I am.

"Beloved Papaji, I thank you very much for
all you took off my shoulders.

"So I can dance aptly in silence.

"Being here now in this auspicious moment,
I'd like to ask you for a new name.

"Having seen... having been called...

-"called... Burr?"
-"Bear."

"Called Burr?
-Bear.

Bear, is not the spelling of the bear.

Is like this? No, it's not correct.

Bear. "For almost half my life,

"which means, courageous and
and endurent... as a bear.

"Please give me another name
from knowledge of self.

"With loving gratitude."

-So what is this?
-Bear.

-Bear.
-Lucknow.

Lucknow 28.

Bear means?

-Couragous?
-Bear.

Like a bear.

-Ah, bears are very courageous?
-Yes.

Okay, where to write...

-Eight.
- 28. Two, eight.

-Eight?
-Yes. One, ninety-seven.

Challa.

This is your name.

Read it.

-Madhukar.
-Yeah.

-Sweet like honey.
-Yeah, honey.

Beloved

Yes, you will see now,
how people will jump on you.

Madhukar.
Yeah, sweet. Honey.

Honey-like.

This is? What is this?

Hmm?

"Dear Papaji.
Thank you for... going?.

-"Having heard.
-"For having heard.

It's difficult to read.

"My deep longing heart.

"My deep longing for and

"Longing heart, and made me come here.

-and made me?
-"come here.

"...made me come here.

"Please help me.

"Only one....

"Please help me surrender...

-"Only.
-"...as only one thing matters.

-"Matters.
-"Which is to know who I truly am."

-"I would be...
-"...very happy...

"Very happy if you give me a name."

What is this?
What's smelly?

-Maybe the flowers?
-Hmm. Yeah.

She got some smell?

She got some smell, yeah.

Some scent?

Okay.

-She got the smell. She got the smell.
-Smell?

It's written here:
"Smell of soma plant."

-Oh, like?
-"Smell of soma plant."

Ah.

Smelling.

Challa.

Give her this name,

Read it.

You can read. You yes.

-You have to read and tell.
-Soma.

There yeah,

Soma. Moonlight.

Moonlight face and...

Beautiful face and sweet like honey.

-Yes.
-Soma.

And cheeks, they're not cheeks like
potatoes?

Beautiful. She is from which country?

From which country you are?

She deosn't know!
She forgot.

She forgot. She forgot!

She forgot.
She forgot.

Challa.

"I live in Boulder and...

-"and help mail video?
-"Gangaji's videos."

Right. Read it now.

"And help mail Gangaji's videos
to different cities in America.

-"To different cities in America."
-Challa.

"I want to ask you about a dream,
I had about you.

"In my dream you and I were married."

The dreams all come true.

"We lived in one room and it was dark."

-It was?
-"dark."

"You decided to leave me."

-To?
-"Leave me."

-Leave?
-"Leave me."

"I bursted out in a deep cry, as you walked
out, taking no possessions,

"and I thought, Now I have to do
it myself; awaken myself.

"What do you think this dream means?"

-Mean.
-What does it mean?

"And is it possible for you
to give me a new name?"

-What's her name, Dona?
-Dona.

Dona says, I was in some country there,
one girl had this name, Dona,

and I asked her, what is the meaning?

She said, "Beloved, beloved and easily
available."

Dona.

Knowledge

Write down here this name which I am
going to give is, which means knowledge,

and another name of Goddess Durga.

Always happy.

Write down the word.

Vidya. Vidya.
Okay, give it to her.

Vidya?

Thank you.

-She says, "No 'i' after 'd'?"
-Hmm?

She says, "No 'i' after 'd'."
Like this: Vid-ya.

Yes, yes, Vid-ya.

-Do you want to sing?
-Yes.

No!

What do you think the dream means?

-Dream?
-Yeah, dream.

When she thought that
she was married to you.

What time she had a dream?

It was this last summer,
during the summer.

During last summer.

-Summer.
-Last summer.

And time?

-At night.
-Whole night, whole night.

Whole night so...

This dream is a true dream.

It is going to happen.
It is very true.

You can't dream otherwise, you have
not seen me, and you are having dream.

So it is going to be a true dream.

And you will know, at that time I will
tell you.

Today, tomorrow doesn't mean anything.

And this time, when you have dream,
it's not time at all.

It is beyond time, where I and you will
always meet.

And then you will know that we are the
same person.

Okay.

Something has come...

My eyes are...

What is name?

Reinhild.
Reinhild.

"I am leaving today, and with you.

"I trust.

"I want to thank you
for your presence...

"Somehow.

"Somehow I feel that you are the light.

-"Although I don't really...
-"understand it.

"...understand it.

"Before I go now, I also want to ask you,

"if you, if you are...

"if you give me,
give me real idea, who I am,

"and know that it becomes,
it becomes more near to that.

"It is, it is that, that...

-"that what I am searching.
-"that what I am searching."

I tell you how you will know
who you are in reality.

Just now you can see
what you are in reality.

First of all, close your eyes,
and secondly, close your mind.

Don't think of the past, present,
and future.

And then you will know who,
who really you are.

You have to tell me now.

-There is nothing,
-Hmm?

-Nothing, there is nothing.
-Ah yes.

That is correct.

You are always That.

You are always that.

But somehow, somebody has toYd you,
'You are my daughter,' and 'You are my wife'

and you have listened to him,
you have become that,

and spoiled yourself.

You are not woman, not man.

You are God itself.

Therefore, nobody has told you, before,
therefore you ignored it.

So tell, 'I am God myself,
I don't need anything else.'

'I am happiness. I am silence.
I am not born.'

So this is the trick to be always happy.

But nobody tells when you are born,
the mother is happy, 'She is my daughter.'

And when you are married,
the husband is happy, 'She is my wife.'

So everybody wants to possess you
for their own use, to enjoy.

Not that.

So you are that, which has no body,

and which cannot be enjoyed,
which is enjoyment itself.

So this is the trick, which nobody has
told you before.

Challa, challa.

"Dear Papaji,
I don't know what to say,

"but...

-"but
-"feeling...

-Feeling?
-Yes.

"but feeling that gratitude today.

-"I am going to the...
-"north...

"to the north and ask you for
a new name to carry with me.

"Thank you, Papaji."

-Susanna.
-Susanna. She is French?

From Switzerland.
Switzerland.

Susanna, because I know one girl,
she was coming to me,

Susanna was her name, was there.
Country there.

-Susanna her name?
-Her name is Susanna.

Sushma

Beautiful.

Spelling of honest?

N-E-S-T.

Give it to her.

What name?

Sushma.

Sushma, yeah.

-Her name was?
-Susanna.

You must have this name then, Sushma.

-Beautiful.
-Beautiful. Loving. Honest.

Honest, yeah.

Sushma. Susanna. I'd say, they are
very close to each other.

"I am leaving Lucknow,
in two days.

"And tomorrow, Wednesday, is my birthday.

"I would like to know if I can come with
my husband and..."

- children?
-Children, yeah. Children.

"Children to have lunch
with you tomorrow."

"Can I sing a song for you?"

Today, or at the same time?

-Today and tomorrow.
-"Today and tomorrow."

So, how many people will come?

How many people will come?
They are four on their side.

-Five.
-Five.

Five people.

But here we are about that time?
What time?

Here we are at least 30,
40 people for lunch.

If you bring for all of them,
it will be nice, otherwise....

At least for 30 people,
you have to bring our 30 people.

Because when you eat somewhere, you eat
together, isn't it?

So, what are you going to bring with you?

Or you can arrange.

There is somebody here.
He can arrange, if you like.

So, you can give order to him.

He makes very good food.

Very good food.

And money also he doesn't care,
but you have to give advance money.

[off mic] He makes [indecipherable]...

He is very faithful man.

So, you give, then he will
show you our place also.

And he will come himself also
to help you in eating.

-What's her name?
-Cecilia.

Cecilia.

Cecilia.
Cecilia.

-She is the wife of Yogi.
-Yogi. I see.

Yes. Then it's all right to say.

Do you want to sing?

Today or tomorrow, as you like.

Tomorrow will be good, at that time.

-Who's this.
-This is Patty.

Patti.

"I love you.

-"Have you.
-"Thank you.

"Thank you for loving me
enough to help me...

-"love truth.
-"Will you kiss me?

Yes. Yes.
Will you kiss me?

"Will you kiss me with your grace?

-With your?
-"Grace." Grace. Grace.

-What? Grace.
-Grace.

"And my giving one...

-"By giving me a new name.
-Oh new name, also.

"I would like to share your grace with
everyone who speaks my name."

-"who?
-"who speaks my name.

Ah, "who speaks my name."

What does it mean?
Who will speak the name?

Whoever will speak her name will be
sharing your grace.

Okay.

Yes.

-Do you know how you write this, Priya?
-Yes, Papaji.

Yes.

Beloved Priya.

-Date?
-Eight.

Eight. One. Nine-seven.

What is this name?

Priya.

Beloved. Lovely.

Priya.

Who's name was Priya?
I just remember.

Who's name was Priya?

She's in Arunachala now, Papaji.

She's in Arunachala.

One girl, Priya, was here.

She's from Chile.
She went to Arunachala,

and she will come after
one or two weeks.

Okay. Arunachala.

-I'm going to Arunachala tomorrow...
-Okay

...Friday too, so I'll see her.
And I'll be back. Thank you.

"Dear Papaji, by your grace I have...
I have been...

Embraced.
Embraced.

"...I have been embraced and...

-"taken into the...
-Hearts.

-"...into the...
-Hearts.

-Hearts.
-Hearts.

"Hearts of many people.

-"here in...
-Lucknow.

"Here in Lucknow.

"The family I live with

"treat me.

-Huh?
-"treat me.

"treats me...
-"as a family member.

"as a family member."
Where you are staying?

In Ravindra Saxonah's House.
Not far from here.

-I didn't understand the name.
-Ravindra Saxonah's home.

Ravindra Saxonah's home.

-Huh?
- Ravindra Saxona's home.

-An Indian name.
-You stay with Indian family?

-Then... "a sector.
-No. A sector.

A sector.
This is a doctor.

"He's a doctor.
And treats me like...

-"For no money.
-Eh?

"Treats me for no money."

"A doctor is treating me for no money."

"I lay these beautiful people at your feet
and ask that you bless them."

-Okay.
"My heart is full of love for you.

"For all. I'm very happy dear Papaji.

"It is very good to be here.

"May I have a name from you.
Thank you, Father."

-What's her name?
-Catherine.

Catherine.

Lovely.

-What is from?
-Lovely.

-Spelling.
-E-L-Y.

Two, eight, one, nine, seven.

What is this name?

Prema. Prema?

Have you heard this name before? No.

"Dear Papaji, since one and a half month,
I am here in Lucknow.

"I left Italy to meet you,

"carrying all my hopes...

"all my hopes in the...

-"travel bag"

-"in the travel bag.
-"in the travelling bag.

I am very happy to be here and like...

-"Silent.
-" I like silence here at your feet.

"I am very happy here for the first time,
but every...

-Day; "every day,
-Ah, "every day...

-"grows in me
-"grows in me the...

-"desire...
-"desire to come close to you all the day.

"I believe that you have...

"can throw, can throw. "
"throw the bridge.

-No?
-Throw. T-H-R-O-W, throw.

Throw the bridge.

-Bridge.
-..."bridge that goes from...

"Words. From words.
"from words into silence."

"Roads into silence.

-"And from...
-"I am at that point.

"I am at that point, there...

-"Where words and concepts.
-..."and concepts there.

-"...are not sufficient anymore.
-"Not sufficient. Anymore.

Read it, I can't read.

"Questions seem inadequate.

"My identification with the body and its
thousand troubles doesn't give an inch.

"I am tired to think about what I should
or should not do.

"And even the thought that there is nothing
I have or can do, is just a thought.

"Papa, let myself go into your grace.

"Laura." Laura.

Laura. Laura?

-Laura. Laura.
-Laura.

-I am translating for her.
-She is translating.

-She is translating.
-Yes.

You may not have translators,
so let her translate so they...

What is it?

Challa, let her translate,
I will see next.

Challa.

Translate what she has written in English
so that everybody has not understood.

So you speak there.

Give her this letter.

[insert language spoke]

-Challa.
-She doesn't want words any more.

She doesn't want words any more.

And she just wants to disappear.

She translates beautifully.

So, this I can see.

"I am so much beautiful that everybody who
looks at me, follows me.

"And I am such a holy person in my life.

"And this life attracts many other people
and they also become holy.

"And so much...
So much I...

-"I...
- "Gopika."

-Gopika!
-Gopika!

-And this?
-Very short note.

-Who?
-"Thank you, Vithal."

Vithal.

Vithal. Yeah.
Challa