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Your Own Heart is Becoming the Beloved.mp4

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    Your Own Heart is Becoming the Beloved
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    26 January 2025
    (with subtitles)
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    Q: I feel you sometimes you say,
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    'We don't know how honest
    or how open we are'.
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    And I feel it.
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    M: Okay, you say,
    'Sometimes, we don't know how open we are'.
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    I'm a little bit with this.
    But you're open enough to come here.
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    M: Do you know what shop this is?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: What shop is it?
    [laughter]
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    Q: The shop ... Empty shop.
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    M: Empty shop?
    [laughter]
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    M: It's very smart. Very good, okay.
    Q: Maybe.
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    M: Okay, so you come for some emptiness.
    [laughs]
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    [laughter]
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    M: Okay.
    Q: I just feel it's easy to miss this one.
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    M: In an empty shop you cannot buy.
    You can only Be.
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    There's nothing to purchase.
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    It's a good title, 'Come to the empty shop'.
    [laughter]
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    Thieves in an empty house.
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    I want to use it.
    I want you to use this.
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    Why do you use this example?
    'Empty. Empty shop.'
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    Q: What I feel is I cannot be,
    I cannot be 100 percent sure
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    if there is anything I'm not seeing.
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    M: Yes.
    I don't know if I've ever met anybody
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    who is a 100 percent sure of anything.
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    Except that you are.
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    Maybe this you can say.
    You're sure that you exist,
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    and that you are experiencing or perceiving.
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    M: Do you agree or not? You know that you are?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: And that you are experiencing?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: So let's work only with this then,
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    as everything else is traffic to this.
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    So everything comes
    and it's being perceived.
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    It comes and goes, it's being perceived.
    Why is perceiving here?
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    Because you are here, you exist.
    Now we must look.
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    Leave everything that can come and go.
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    Leave all of that now.
    Only you and perceiving.
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    And, of you and perceiving,
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    which is most true, if one has to go?
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    Hmm?
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    You say, 'I perceive'. 'I perceive.'
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    So, 'I perceive', means every experiencing,
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    whatever is happening is perceived
    by this sense of 'I'.
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    M: Yes?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: So you could even say,
    'I am not perceiving'.
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    Which means,
    I'm perceiving that I'm not perceiving.
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    I'm going to keep it clean and simple.
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    So ...
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    Speaker 1: Guruji, how about
    you're perceiving emptiness?
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    Q: Just when you say, 'What is more true?'
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    I don't remember exactly what you said,
    like, 'You're perceiving?'
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    M: You know that you exist.
    Q: Yes.
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    M: And that you are perceiving
    or experiencing your perceiving
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    through the senses or the mind?
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    If some inner state or outer states [come],
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    that's being perceived by you.
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    So everything that comes, can go.
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    Mental states, emotional states,
    friends can come,
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    people live, people stay, people die,
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    you feel sickness, you feel health,
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    you feel excitement, feel boredom,
    feel tired, feel energy.
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    M: All this you perceive,
    and they come and go.
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    M: You who perceives them,
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    does that come and go?
    Is it personal?
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    M: Also, personal states come.
    Q: Yes.
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    M: So, that's also amongst
    the field of perceivable, isn't it?
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    So even those things,
    and the feeling of 'I',
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    and an autobiography, your ideas about life,
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    all of those personal things,
    they are also perceived. Okay?
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    M: And they can change shape,
    and their change is also perceived.
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    So they cannot be that which perceives them.
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    M: That's true?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: That which is perceiving, is it
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    material or immaterial? It's immaterial?
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    Q: It's not material.
    M: It's not material.
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    Q: I cannot say what it is.
    But I experience that ...
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    M: Who is speaking now?
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    M: It's not a trick question.
    Q: I'm looking.
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    M: Obviously, the response is coming
    so fluidly and so comfortably,
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    there's no strain to comment that
    all these things are being perceived.
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    And that whatever is perceiving,
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    itself cannot be perceived by a quality.
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    Is it male or female?
    Is it any of these things? No.
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    So, answers, responses are coming from there.
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    So even the responses are coming
    and they are also perceived,
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    pouring out of some, whatever,
    something, or no thing.
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    Q: I don't know if it's pouring out
    of something. It's perceived.
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    M: Okay, they are appearing also,
    they appear.
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    So that which is perceiving them,
    what is to be said of that?
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    Is it a structure or no structure?
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    Q: It's no structure.
    M: Okay.
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    M: Is that significant for you?
    Q: It is significant. It is.
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    M: Okay. Where does the problem start,
    if one starts?
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    M: Is it a new skill that you developed?
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    And anyone can apply [this].
    It's not particular to you.
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    It's for anyone.
    For everyone there's a sense of 'I', 'I Am',
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    but it's quickly given to the body,
    'I am this person',
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    'I'm from Germany', 'I'm from this place',
    'I'm a doctor',
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    'I'm this and that and that', is acquired.
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    So it takes on the sense
    of being something identifiable.
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    But from your place,
    that is also a construct that is seen.
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    The 'I' that is seeing them
    is not those things.
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    You cannot say it is a doctor or a nurse,
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    or it's 1.7 cm,
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    170 cm, you know,
    it doesn't have any of those things.
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    What is it like unto itself?
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    If it doesn't connect with points of perception
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    or things to perceive; by itself?
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    Q: It's not bothered by anything.
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    M: Yes. Okay, bring the things back.
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    M: Is it bothered by them?
    Q: No.
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    Q: It is, if identity is missed.
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    M: If identity?
    Q: Is not seen.
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    M: So, identity brings all the trouble then?
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    Q: Identifying brings all the trouble.
    But for who?
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    M: Ah. Are you asking me about who?
    [laughter]
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    M: You have to find out.
    Right here is good.
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    Q: The trouble cannot be for
    that which is not touched by it.
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    M: Yes.
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    M: Is, 'That which is not touched by it'
    an object of perception?
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    Q: No.
    M: Where is it?
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    Q: It has no location.
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    M: It has no problem?
    Q: It has no problem.
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    M: Okay, let's go to where the problems are.
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    M: Why are you trying to solve a thing
    that has no problem?
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    Q: 'Why try to solve a thing
    that has no problem?'
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    M: Yes. It has no problem!
    [laughter]
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    So where will we go now to find a problem?
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    It is good. It's fine!
    We're looking and it's good.
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    I don't want to feel,
    'Ah! Yes. The end of the thing. Okay, I go now.'
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    Because problems begin somewhere
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    and everyone is troubled by it.
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    Who is the everyone? You must also find.
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    It appears that you are no one,
    and you are someone.
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    In this receding you come to,
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    'Ah, actually, I am here.
    'I', but 'I' as what is here?'
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    Well, it's certainly not the person.
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    It's not male or female.
    It's not Muslim or Christian.
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    It's something ...
    Something, nothing about it.
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    M: Is it a valuable discovery?
    Q: Yes.
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    M: Yes. So that's not where problems are.
    Q: No.
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    M: Okay. So where the problems come
    is in the place of identity,
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    M: where, 'I am someone'.
    Q: Yes.
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    M: Is there a way
    that this sense of being someone ...
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    How does that look now
    from the place of your discovery?
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    'Actually, fundamentally,
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    I am not any of these things
    that have been spoken of.'
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    How do the things ...
    The world of things, what is their value?
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    They don't impact upon this,
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    but, somehow,
    this must be the cause of them playing,
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    and here the sense 'I' is also there,
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    and a very familiar feeling of 'I'.
    But is it stable?
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    Is it always constant, this 'I',
    now, the second 'I'?
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    Q: The moving 'I' is not constant.
    M: Yes. Yes.
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    M: So is it not the moving 'I'
    who came to satsang?
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    Q: Yes.
    M: Yes.
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    M: Because what?
    It cannot control its world.
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    Q: And it's good it cannot,
    because I wouldn't, it wouldn't ...
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    Q: It wouldn't find out what it really is
    if it could control anything.
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    Like if there wouldn't be this trouble
    and this pain in this identifying,
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    there would be no urge to ...
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    M: So it must have an urge.
    It must have a drive.
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    What is the drive of this 'I',
    which is the 'I'-person?
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    Because all the human beings,
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    we have this mask or sickness of 'I' -me.
    'I'-me.
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    What is the 'I'-me really in search of?
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    Everybody can take this.
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    The 'I'-me,
    is it quiet and content and happily 'I'-me?
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    No. So what does it want?
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    Speaker 2: To be free of suffering.
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    M: It's to be free of suffering.
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    Only you? Only you?
    [murmurs in sangha]
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    Oh, okay, okay.
    To be free of suffering.
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    M: What is it suffering from?
    Group: Its projection.
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    M: Its projection. Its projection.
    Da da da ...
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    We're on common ground now.
    It's having some suffering.
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    Q: But I'm not sure that this 'I',
    this identified one,
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    wants to be at peace.
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    M: Wants to be?
    Q: At peace.
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    M: It doesn't want to be at peace?
    Q: I'm not sure.
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    M: You speaking, now, are not that.
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    M: Is that what you're saying?
    Q: Not being ...?
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    M: Not the person;
    you're not sure if that person-self is really ...
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    Who is speaking now?
    Just to be clear. And look.
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    You're looking from where?
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    From an identified place
    or a not identified place?
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    There is a feeling, 'I Am',
    I call it consciousness,
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    that 'I Am'-ness, without strong identification
    with the personal sense,
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    that is,
    I'm going to call it the Brahman, for the moment.
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    Only because I can I have
    another word called Parabrahman.
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    Would you understand? All right.
    So it is the consciousness.
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    It is the guru state of being,
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    which is all, for everybody, it is there.
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    It is that in which the world of person
    and its world, and all of this,
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    is seen from here,
    but is not disturbed by that.
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    And from this place, 'I Am' has the power,
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    by looking into the realm
    of the 'I'-me and the 'I'-person,
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    it imparts some grace to it,
    because in the form of the 'I'-person ...
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    Are we following? It's good?
    In the form of the 'I'-person
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    it is still consciousness,
    it's a mode of consciousness.
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    And that sense of being,
    if you want to call it a soul ...
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    Are we all right for the moment?
    Just working words.
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    The soul, it has different characteristics.
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    In India, they speak of the different gunas,
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    which are kind of energetic qualities
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    that affect the soul, some soul tendency.
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    Q: Sorry, but the soul
    you call the person now? Or what?
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    M: Yes. Let me just continue
    and then you'll see.
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    M: So then, the sense of being somebody,
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    an entity with characteristics, with a history,
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    with association, with parents, with family,
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    with all of these things, self-description,
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    that makes you uniquely you.
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    At least, for the time being,
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    because also you keep changing
    what you say about yourself.
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    If you keep on writing an autobiography
    over a period of 20 years,
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    it's going to keep changing;
    so the person is not stable.
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    Whereas, the 'I Am',
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    which generates
    the projection of the mind and person ...
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    I'm going to call person and mind similar,
    for the moment.
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    If you want me to cover because
    it's good if you understand this thing,
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    then it becomes more clear, no?
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    So the ...
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    M: The personal state of consciousness
    is where all the conflicts can come.
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    Desire can come.
    Pain, life, death, you and me.
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    This, that, up, down, heaven, hell;
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    all these things are in there,
    for the person.
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    It's never a stable environment!
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    And even unto itself,
    with nothing to interfere,
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    it interferes with itself.
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    It also suffers from its own,
    'I'm lonely,
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    I don't know what I'm going to do'.
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    So it's never without trouble.
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    But as it's also on a journey
    of this world, as we know it,
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    each one is on a journey of self-discovery.
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    It may not be conscious of it like that.
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    For a while, our urge for discovering things
    can be merely phenomenal.
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    Like, 'I want to be a lawyer', 'A doctor',
    'To be famous',
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    'I want to be a singer',
    'I want to be something'.
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    And all this produces fruit.
    It's a power! It produces fruit.
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    You may indeed become famous or rich,
    and all these kinds of things.
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    But we are discovering,
    even those who became very rich,
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    at some point they're not satisfied
    with being rich,
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    as the whole system is built like that.
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    You can never be really satisfied,
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    really genuinely satisfied, until you're home.
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    And 'home' means to be awake
    to your true nature,
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    which is not somewhere else,
    not over there.
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    It's like peeling away.
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    So ...
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    So my way of looking at it
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    is that the person is the one
    who takes the journey,
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    of life.
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    And I would not say...
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    In Advaita thought,
    'The person doesn't exist', 'The mind doesn't exist',
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    'The world doesn't exist' ...
    And ultimately it's true,
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    but you must understand
    in what light it is true.
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    Because when you say to beings
    who have a strong idea of self
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    and who have a philosophy,
    have relief, have belief, all these things,
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    'It's not true, it doesn't exist',
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    it's very hurtful, you don't know ...
    'What you're saying!'
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    Some can adopt that thing
    and indeed learn and take that attitude,
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    but inside it's not true!
    Something has to be clear.
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    So the sense of being someone,
    it is consciousness!
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    When you say 'I', when you feel 'I' ...
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    Because nobody gave you 'I'.
    Everything else you receive.
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    Nobody ... Your parents didn't say,
    'I'm going to name you 'I''.
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    And yet all the beings
    have this intuitive self-reference of 'I'.
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    Not the English version.
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    So even mosquitoes have a feeling of 'I'.
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    'I' points to existence, 'I exist'.
    That's what it really means.
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    But the 'I'-person
    very rarely touches on this root,
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    that it means existence
    and that it is conscious.
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    It doesn't even know that it cannot die,
    as consciousness.
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    Consciousness cannot die!
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    But its belief, 'I am the body', can die.
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    But it doesn't mean It dies.
    The body will die.
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    But what you are cannot die.
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    It will just transfer for more experiencing,
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    if there are more things to experience.
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    So this urge inside,
    with different beings in different bodies ...
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    I put it like that,
    identities in different bodies,
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    are on a journey,
    depending upon your maturity.
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    Some people only want to be famous!
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    Or, 'I want 5 children.'
    'To live in a beautiful house.'
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    'I want enough money to do what I want.'
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    Those desires are permitted
    by Parabrahman, by Paramatman,
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    that life gives the life in this.
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    All desires can be had. Good and bad.
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    And it will help you to fulfil your desires.
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    Even a thief,
    He wants you to be a better thief.
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    It gives the power
    to learn to be a better thief!
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    As God has a use for you, as a great thief!
    [laughter]
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    Because He is going to perfect the other ones,
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    who may be somewhere more evolved,
    through your thievery.
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    They need this thievery
    to move on even more.
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    The whole thing is beautifully managed
    [laughter]
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    by Paramatman taking care of all things.
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    Not one thing goes missing.
    Not only for human beings,
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    the ant kingdom, the bee kingdom,
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    the horse and every kingdom.
    He is the God of all of them.
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    They have their rules.
    They have their philosophies.
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    They have their ways.
    They have their likes and dislikes.
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    They have their urges and their suffering.
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    Everything is evolving, somehow.
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    Let's stick to our world for a little bit. Okay?
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    So in our world, this urge is there,
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    and for a while, depending upon ...
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    Because not all the beings
    are at the same level of maturity.
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    He made it like that. He didn't say,
    'All who are mature like that go here,
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    and all of you mature ...'
    No, He mixes it up. And we fight.
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    But we need it, also.
    Do you see?
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    I'm saying this
    so you don't complain about your life.
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    Everything that's sent to you,
    if you take it only as,
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    'This thing happened to me,
    I didn't do anything [to get] it'.
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    Actually, you earned it!
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    And you have to make use of the experience of it
    to transcend in yourself.
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    As you transcend in yourself
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    your light becomes light for others also.
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    But don't think like that, 'I am my light ...'
    [laughter]
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    Do you understand?
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    So, if you have this attitude, okay.
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    But somehow this is needed,
    it's pointing out something.
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    Rather than, 'Oh, they are attacking me ...'
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    The self, as a person, is also very myopic
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    and very self-protecting.
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    That's why he doesn't grow so quick,
    because it feels vulnerable.
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    And when you're vulnerable it locks in
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    and [mimics sniper shooting].
    It locks in.
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    When you see these things, you realise,
    '... But a deeper consciousness ...'
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    She's just been speaking
    from this deeper consciousness,
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    in which the sense of the person and its world
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    are seen with more detachment.
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    You say, 'But I speak with you ...
    But from here, I'm actually just fine.'
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    What do you want?
    What do you need?
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    What is your problem?
    'Actually, here, nothing actually.'
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    For a problem, I have to go back over there.
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    And over there is in the state of the person.
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    'My neighbours', and, 'My relationship'.
    'And things ...'
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    And, 'Will I get enough money and ...'
    These are the woes of the person.
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    They are here to make you grow.
    To help you.
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    When you see
    and understand this a little bit,
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    you don't get angry,
    'Oh, it's them'. 'They are the cause.'
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    But you use it.
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    But when you come here,
    I want to fast forward! Which you can.
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    You can go tick tock, tick tock ...
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    Or you can somehow come into big seeing.
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    You can travel in footsteps.
    Or you can travel by galaxies.
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    So here, I feel, and I assume,
    you may correct me,
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    that when you come here,
    there is, within you, the capacity
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    to [exhales],
    to flower into higher states.
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    When you realise, 'Wait a second,
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    I'm kind of wasting my time in the person,
    quite a lot.
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    Because now I'm aware of myself
    in consciousness, as consciousness.'
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    And what happens by that?
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    Well, as you learn to observe,
    as I've shown,
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    learn to observe things more,
    as we're too identified.
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    If you're identified you slow down.
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    And what happens?
    You start to accumulate concepts.
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    And the more concepts you accumulate,
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    the more opaque you become,
    the more solid, the more rigid.
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    If you know people
    who have a pile of concepts,
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    their concepts and your concepts can't dance.
    'No, no, whoa, whoa.'
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    Even family can be like this.
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    So, what you will earn is,
    by observing with detachment,
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    learning to look and see
    if you can catch this seeing,
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    where even your person,
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    your person, the subject of all your world,
    is itself seen!
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    When you can see, you can say, 'Whoa!'
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    It's not just a world, but the personal self
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    that has the reflection of that world.
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    They are, I say, two sides of one coin.
    They go together.
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    Your mistake has been
    your identifying yourself and feeling,
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    'But it's the world,
    everything is wrong there. It's not me.'
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    What makes you do that?
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    It's because your person
    also goes by the title of 'I'.
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    And 'I' means God!
    Do you understand?
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    Your 'I' is consciousness,
    which is the godly principle.
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    Then you understand this 'I', the 'I'-me,
    and the 'I'-'I', or the 'I am'.
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    You see the difference.
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    When we go into 'I'-me,
    all your life struggles, 'This, I can't get ...',
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    'This one is sick and ...'
    It is strong! It is strong.
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    It didn't have its origin in one body life-form.
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    It's been going on for a long time.
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    But gradually, it's growing through,
    what I call, the 'guna field'.
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    'Gunas' mean some energy which is ...
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    Tamasic guna means
    when the entity of self is more resistant
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    and more easily troubled
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    and full of identity and resistance,
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    that's called tamasic guna, tama guna.
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    Then the energy, the entity's energy,
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    can also have
    something you can call raja guna,
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    which means the soul is more energetic,
    it's full of desire.
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    It wants to do things, it's adventurous.
    It has many ideas ...
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    And then, also,
    another guna, called sattva guna.
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    Sattva guna is more pure,
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    meaning the energy field
    is more attracted to spirit.
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    It wants to evolve in consciousness.
    It wants to realise.
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    These gunas are playing
    within the beingness.
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    Some gunas have more ascendance,
    more strong in one.
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    Another is stronger in another one.
    It's like this.
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    So all of you, I say,
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    you must be exhibiting
    some stronger sattva guna.
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    But you have raja guna in there,
    pulling at your tail. [laughter]
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    And sometimes tamas guna,
    'Uhh' [tuts]. [mimics despair]
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    It's all part of it.
    [laughter]
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    It's a kind of fun way of looking, no?
    [laughter]
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    It's not that funny, actually.
    [more laughter]
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    But we understand a little bit.
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    So, somehow to come to satsang,
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    without anyone pressuring you to do that,
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    means your soul is attracted, a bit, towards it.
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    And the more you find out,
    and not just intellectually,
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    but begin to experience your understanding,
    experiential understanding,
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    you're encouraged within yourself.
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    You're falling in love.
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    If you fall in love with someone
    and you're really falling in love deeply,
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    you will require nobody to remind you
    to remember your beloved.
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    The urge comes from inside, it's pulling,
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    always, whatever you're doing you're thinking ...
    [laughter]
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    So your own Self,
    your own heart is becoming the beloved
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    of the sense of your person.
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    It's in the sattva guna.
    It's drawing more and more.
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    After sattva guna what happens?
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    They call one state 'turiya',
    which means becoming clean,
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    functioning more from consciousness.
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    The lower states don't trouble you,
    they don't trouble.
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    Identity doesn't trouble you.
    At some point it won't trouble you.
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    People call you, 'So you are Paulette?'
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    'Yes, it's my name.' You still use the name.
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    When you wake up fully into yourself,
    you will not have to change name.
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    You don't have to call yourself Parabrahman,
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    or some wonderful name.
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    You can still use your name.
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    But you are not this name.
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    You see, it's like, somehow,
    something's unfolding.
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    Concepts don't stick with you.
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    The more they don't stick with you,
    they're not so important.
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    Then all is available for you!
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    You can listen without having to decide,
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    'No, I believe in this. What do you believe?
    What is your standpoint?'
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    It doesn't matter, actually,
    because you're in the all-ness of your being.
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    Is it okay that we're talking like this?
    Let's clear the field. Okay?
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    M: We're sweeping the house,
    so you understand.
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    M: When you say, '... I don't know why
    I keep getting these things' ...
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    That relationship-building is sticky.
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    So I don't say, I'll show you how
    to solve that problem, that problem ...
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    I say, No. Learn something!
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    Learn to observe your sense of identity,
    and its likes and dislikes,
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    but with some distance.
    Learn. You can see!
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    And learn to detach.
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    And what did I say?
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    Should I say 99.9 percent
    of the things in the world do not trouble you?
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    Which means you can walk anywhere in the world;
    things don't [attach].
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    No, you can move.
    It's natural detachment!
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    But the 0.1 percent [laughter]
    of the things that matter,
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    'Oh, yeah. But no, no, whoa, I don't like pink!'
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    [imitates repulsion] 'Not me!'
    'I don't like this!'
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    'Peacock feathers!'
    'Oh, keep that away from me!'
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    All this kind of stuff keeps you tied up
    in the shape of the person.
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    You may feel proud, 'I'm this kind of person,
    not that kind of person'.
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    We don't realise how we cheat
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    and shrink from our beauty.
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    All of this is you!
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    You will never learn and really ...
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    Love everyone!
    Even those not yet born, you love.
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    'Oh, no, but I've never seen them.
    Oh, I didn't know.' No, no!
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    Do you understand?
    Because it's your nature.
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    It's not just your choice.
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    And so I say, What is the simple thing?
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    Learn to observe, more and more, with detachment.
    Learn to see.
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    The mind, the maya-mind says,
    'No, that's wasting time.
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    I don't get anything from doing that.
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    I fall asleep. Whenever I try
    to look without attachment, I fall asleep.
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    Even here when we did
    the 'Just Be' exercise ...'
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    Ding dong! I say like this ...
    [mimics falling asleep] [laughter]
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    You just woke up!
    [laughter]
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    What is this?
    It is a kind of psychic resistance. It's in us.
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    It's something that is trying to resist
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    the coming into the fullness of yourself.
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    It's a force, this maya force,
    it's a little resistance.
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    But don't be worried. It will soon change.
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    The minute you begin to feel
    the darshan of your own heart
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    [deep inhale and exhale]
    there's so much encouragement.
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    But you must earn it!
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    And what the teacher will do is
    teach this thing,
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    but you have to be on board!
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    You have to be on board.
    You have to be there.
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    Because even greatest guru cannot help you
    if your heart's not on board.
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    You must work for it.
    And look what it is, also!
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    It's very mystical. But it's not difficult.
  • 32:41 - 32:43
    The path has been made so clean.
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    The higher you go, the purer the climate,
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    the simpler the advice, if you can take it.
  • 32:49 - 32:51
    But the stronger the resistance!
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    Because your earth self [mimics resistance]
    is fighting.
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    It's lazy. 'Argh.' It's like this.
    You have to watch him.
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    You have to learn to observe this, okay?
    And press on.
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    And what you have,
    you may say at some point,
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    'I have nothing to encourage me
    because my mind is just killing me ...'.
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    And some people say,
    'But Guruji told you to do it'.
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    'Yes, yes.
    Yeah, yeah, I'll do it.'
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    Why? Because you have faith.
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    And enough faith to give you
    some strength, some courage.
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    Then also life, the source, empowers you,
    because you chose.
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    When you choose ...
    You've chosen many things,
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    you can keep on choosing
    many things in life,
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    but you're choosing the Supreme!
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    You're choosing God-consciousness,
    you're choosing the Self.
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    When I speak like this,
    I get touched, you see?
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    If you choose This,
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    then you are really making use
    of this life-form.
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    Because you can choose many things,
    and they will delay you.
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    And it's okay!
    You like this thing. You like that.
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    It's freedom. It's okay, it's okay.
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    But if you have, in your heart, this choice,
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    then you have taken the highest choice!
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    And you will be tested!
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    And you must pass this test.
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    And then all the grace of Parabrahman
    comes for you.
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    If you say, 'I went around the corner,
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    somebody went, 'Boo!'
    I don't want to go there.'
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    Then you come, 'Guruji what is the highest?'
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    I'd say, You didn't even pass the lowest!
    [laughter]
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    M: You want the highest.
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    I say, a little person comes,
    says, 'Look at you. Oh, no, no.'
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    And you're [imitates despair].
    I say, but it's small things.
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    How are you going to overcome?
    By looking and learning to let the fear ...
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    Don't try to stop the feelings.
    Let them come. Don't try to stop them.
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    What you need is not to stop them,
    but to have clear seeing of them!
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    See that it's just the life force!
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    The force of habit is playing
    and this is its domain, [indicates the body]
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    these are its sensors.
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    It's playing in here.
    And the mind is playing.
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    And you say, 'But how is it I can see this?
    How come I'm seeing this?'
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    Gradually, you stay in your satsang,
    you listen, you start to find,
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    'Whoa! Where there didn't seem to be a way,
    there is a way!'
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    'Which way is it?'
    'It's here, it's here, it's here.' [taps heart]
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    So, you just continue.
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    Don't try ... If something gets a bit hurt,
    you go try something else,
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    you try something else and enjoy.
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    No, no. You must have some faith!
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    If you don't have faith,
    you can pray, ask Baba,
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    'Babaji, please,
    I want to believe, I trust,
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    but I'm weak, please help me.'
    God's help comes.
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    Help comes. Be humble.
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    As you're growing, kindness is coming.
    Kindness is coming.
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    Maybe we didn't realise
    how unkind our behaviour is.
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    Selfishness is going.
    Empathy is coming.
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    Spaciousness is coming.
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    Heaviness is leaving.
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    An unexpected boon and grace is flowing,
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    seemingly undeserved; it's coming.
  • 37:04 - 37:06
    Then, things that you feel,
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    'But how did this come?', are coming.
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    When you start to feel great,
    something goes [sharp prod]. 'Ooh.'
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    That is coming also.
    Everything is coming. [laughter]
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    Are you going to give up?
    Like this it comes.
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    I have a tremendous...
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    I have in my heart, I found,
    the love for all the beings is there.
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    I didn't work at it.
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    You just stay open,
    you come to your natural love,
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    your natural state is there.
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    But the service to sangha,
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    who, if I am right about it,
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    are those I perceive to be
    on a higher journey of awakening,
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    then this body, this life force,
    is dedicated to that.
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    It's dedicated to that.
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    You will have troubles,
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    but you will overcome them.
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    And the highest, clearest power in the universe
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    has called you.
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    [silence]
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    And it supports your seeing.
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    Stop thinking of yourself
    as some petty little thing.
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    But don't think of yourself as
    a great thing, also.
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    [laughter]
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    Yeah.
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    And the one thing that will be repeated:
    Don't give up.
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    Keep looking
    and clarify your misunderstanding of you.
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    Someone says, 'But I'm doing like this'.
    I say, No, no, no.
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    Is that what I show?
    Come now, you do. Look ...
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    Come.
    [indicates receding to detached seeing]
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    Don't put this in your pocket!
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    Put it in your heart. And stay with it.
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    And increase in it.
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    And so your autobiography
    that you write in your person,
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    that will disappear.
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    Group: Thank you.
    M: Thank you.
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    M: What is happening also, is that,
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    I'm finding more the ones ...
    I just find them.
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    We stay together. We look.
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    And quickly, from here,
    [indicates busy mind noise]
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    just go down.
    [indicates moving from head to heart]
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    Do you want to come in with me?
    We go down. Stay.
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    And all this mind stuff
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    starts to just dry up, very naturally.
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    Just simple.
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    I told you from the beginning, It is simple,
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    because you don't have to create your Self.
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    You can create a false self.
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    But your true Self, you can only discover.
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    When you discover it,
    the discoverer merges in it, also.
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Title:
Your Own Heart is Becoming the Beloved.mp4
Video Language:
English
Duration:
42:03

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